[25 October || very late at nite]
[mood || thoughtful]
[song || Heart of Mine - Bob Scaggs, Kissing a Fool - Michael Buble]

uh, i've got so many thoughts on my mind. well, i really wanna be a writer, i found that jackie collins is a nice person, i mean she replies to every letter she got, she is very down to earth and very enjoying writing, she has a great idea of plots. her writing is vulgar but that what makes her interesting. My other fav writer is Sandra Brown, she always bring the romance in her story, i can guess every book she wrotes, but still she inspired me too with her writing style. so, i wish someday i could publish my books...i dont know but something inspired me.
me and andre went to palasari and alun-alun...and guess what!! i bought SHEILA part 2, the title is "Kenangan yang Hilang", im glad that i didnt buy that book at gramedia, cuz palasari made me safe some money from buying the same book there ;) we bought some DVD too, gosh...i already had so many dvd and still haven' got time to watch it one by one and andre told me that
i had to start thinking wheter the dvd's would be place somewhere, cuz it started getting more and more again :p
lately i feel stuck in the middle of my own life, like i dont move into something, i mean...i really want to feel this, feel that, but i feel im walking in the place...such as, i want to have any part time job, but i dont know how and so on. but, its okay, hunny told me that sometimes life sucks and isn't always like we want. but i know i can make it works, you know...every wishes that i asked to Him were always answered, but i dont have to become selfish with what i want...i had to be patient and works for it to be come true.
my mom is one of my thoughts too....she sms'ed me that she feel so weak, she cant works :( i told her to drink some tea with sugar. i hope she wasn't ill or anything....i will ask her condition again later.
I also have a paper to be presented with my group on monday, i hate this...cuz i have to go to the meeting at sunday with them, man...sunday!! can i get break on sunday? no i cant...cuz we gotta make this finish before monday :(

can we create our world?
in the fantazy of being a princess
with a golden castle and so many maids?
can we hold the dreams in our hand?
in every way we want to be

dont tell me when the time will be on my side
cause i might be waiting here for i dont know how long
dont tell me where can i find the way to go
cause i might find my own path

but, better telling me
that i should do something
or the sun will go down
that i should start walking somewhere
or the train will left me behind

i always find the idea of writing poem when im feeling something inside here. sometimes i tried to wrote poems without any exact feeling, but i found that my poem didnt good enough for me. so, i had to get the feeling before i wrote some poems.

hey, my mom juz sms'ed me, she said she's going better now after get sleep and rest. pheww....im veryyyyy glad.
ups, i think that my today journal writing is full of rambling here and there...hehehe...its okay, this is my journal, rite? blah..:p
its 2.11 AM now, im still holdin' up my laptop and listening to this sweet old song and jazzy song, i still open my door too, so the cool air can fulfil my room...feels like im ready to get sleep and dreamin' now :p okay, i feel cold now, i better close my door and go under my blankey a.s.a.p and then sleeeeeeeeeep.

[CERBUNG SASKIE part 4]